Today, there is a change for the committee list again. And for me, my work load is heavier than the previous position. i just feel tired suddenly. And i just kept asking myself, should i tell my friends that i want to resign from my job and what am i doing currently?
Perhaps, i do not know what i want. i still in a puzzled mode. No directions, no decisions. Just that i really feel that i should not continue this kinda life......sorry to say that... Can i escape from everything that i am facing now?
If i had escaped, will i leave a bad image on my friends? i just don't know. At first, i was thinking of have a rest, a vacation. Then, i found that, actually is not the matter of i need a rest or not. But, am i willing to continue this job, which is a tough one. I do not know how to decide. i am lousy. Useless, in fact...
To quit, not just because of i am tired, but it is because of i can't stand on someone else... i seriously thought that, it's enough for me. Fine, just pretend me as a failure. Haiz!~ When will this internal struggle ends? Where is my compasses? i don't wanna get lost anymore...But, i guess i will not easily fall or whatever... Time tells!!
